My Issues with Trust

So I realized that for awhile now, I’ve had major issues trusting God. Not in the sense that I don’t believe in Him or that I don’t want to follow Him. Much deeper issues–let me explain.

I often listen to and observe what is going on with our country and get internally frustrated. I’m not a huge person for politics, mostly because I’m not educated on the issues enough to really know what I’m talking about, but I react my own way like most other Americans. When I see how we allow immigration to the point that I wonder when I’ll be the minority, when I see how people continue to get more and more tired of what they perceive as “God” and what religion has become in America today, and when I realize that other movements like Islam and Mormonism seem to be growing at a much quicker rate that Christianity…I realize that I don’t really trust God.

I don’t really trust Him because I get an uneasy, worried feeling whenever I think about these things. I wonder what role I should play in “making things right” but I’m left overwhelmed and confused. I was reading a Psalm the other day when God really laid this on my heart. It says:

“Arise, Lord, in your anger; rise up against the rage of my enemies. Awake, my God; decree justice. Let the assembled peoples gather around you, while you sit enthroned over them on high. Let the Lord judge the peoples…Bring to an end the violence of the wicked and make the righteous secure–you, the righteous God who probes minds and hearts.” –Psalm 7:6-9

So, while I don’t know what the future holds, and especially what my role should be–I know that God is the ultimate One in control and that He will be the perfect judge in the end. That makes the future a lot easier to accept.

Curse Exxon

If you’re like me than the rising gas prices continually gets under your skin. I don’t understand why nobody does anything to stop the prices from getting so ridiculous. Unfortunately, there aren’t many options that we have to improve the situation. However, I did get one little gem from a buddy of mine. Click here to go to a website that allows you to type in your zip code and see the cheapest gas prices in your areas. $5 here we come…

For all you Video Gamers out there

If you love playing video games you have probably experienced the tension of explaining yourself (and your time management) to others. Most people just don’t understand the passion. Especially most women. My friend sent me a link of a video that hits way close to home. If you have a significant other in your life you should make her watch this too. Click here to watch it.

My Message at Ironman

Last thursday I spoke at our church’s weekly bible study for men with 200+ guys. I spoke on “The Helmet of Salvation” from Ephesians 6. It’s fun whenever I get the opportunity to be involved with things outside of just the student ministry. If you feel so inclined you can find the download link here and listen to it. Just click on the message from 4/06. I’d love to hear feedback on it.


I was asked to speak today to my second most intimidating/awkward settings ever. I talked for a bit at our 55+ ministry’s luncheon. It is amazing to me how much an audience affects how I speak. Even more ironic is that I’m far more intimidated to speak to the elderly than I am with a group of junior highers.

What’s even better was what I had to follow. Before me, a lady was giving an entire lecture on the significance of a hug. I never knew that there was so much research out there on the science of hugs but I’ll admit I was rather intrigued with her information. I now know how to great someone with a “hand hug”…so watch out!

Clarity vs. Intrigue

I started reading Brian McLaren’s third book in his trilogy, The Last Word and the Word After That, and have already read some comment-worthy ideas. He explains about our desire to know all the facts as we learn and grow in our relationship with Jesus:

Clarity is good, but sometimes intrigue may be even more precious; clarity tends to put an end to further thinking, whereas intrigue makes one think more intensely, broadly, and deeply. Jesus’ teaching on the kingdom of God is a case in point; his parables don’t score too well on clarity, but they excel in intrigue.

This is a very encouraging thought. Often we get frustrated when we can’t put all the pieces together but as McLaren points out, that can cause us to be very productive with our faith. If we have everything “figured out,” then we lose our drive to learn more and get closer to Him. It sounds like we should be grateful that God is far too big for us to fully understand.